recuperation – HE IS FOREVER WITH ME

Rx Do Nots

Being on anti-depressant medication is not what I signed up for. But assimilation to the status quo was easy. I was told I may always need them because of the PTSD disease I suffer. And for many years I accepted this fate. I lived life with subdued highs and lows in order to get throughContinue reading “Rx Do Nots”

FRINGE

Sadly, fringe. Not diminishing life one iota. Just the reason believing came easy. Not shared fearing isolation, estrangement. Admonishment of insanity by society whole. Never feeling quite the fit to humanity. Back to believing. Accepting norm never set right. Pretending to be average, steady as she goes like. But turbulent underneath to core. Wanting toContinue reading “FRINGE”

Never Back Down

I discovered firm decisions are hard to come by when most of my life I would go with the flow. I found situations less combative to oppose rules and regulations, whether directly or not applied to my actions. Communication restrictions were the worst. Who I talked to, when and why got to an extreme. IContinue reading “Never Back Down”

Perfection No Longer

Perfection is not all it is cracked up to be. Along with stress, anxiety and possible high blood pressure comes negative perception of self because nobody is perfect. A child abuse victim often feels if I am picture perfect then maybe none of this harm would happen to me. Behaviors of exactness build to hideContinue reading “Perfection No Longer”

Beware The Rut

Recovery from trauma does not happen overnight. You may find that healing occurs like peeling away layers of an onion to work on one at a time. The iterative process is painstaking but well worth the effort. The tendency to pause too long in a particular spot along the way can occur. I found theContinue reading “Beware The Rut”